If I could sum up my entire existence for this new semester alone is the best adjective.
Due to the influx of enrollees this semester for respiratory therapy, the number of students enrolling for a class skyrocketed and left most of the other students [like me] to find other available classes. This would mean that since I was not able to enroll in subjects that were meant for my section, I would have to be inserted into classes meant for other sections. In effect, I would live my life for the whole of this semester by myself, going to and from classes by myself and eat and stuff by myself. So this morning, I got a taste of what life would be like without any friends… at all.
I sorta stepped into a typical “loner’s” shoes today. And I must say, I did not like it one bit.
I read somewhere that Man is a social animal. He needs to constantly interact with people and be among his peers for him to feel fulfilled and content in life. Hmmm… I think that in my case, this maybe true. The age-old cliché that “No man is an island” has deeper meaning to me now. Before, I thought that was all made-up by some wimpy, cling-ish person that cannot live his life without the company of friends and people that he feels comfortable with.
I have NEVER been a “clingy” person. I don’t depend on others for support. I don’t need other people for comfort and I enjoy the company of my own self.
But today, something in me stirred seeing groups of people happily chit-chattering while waiting for the teacher to step inside the classroom. The peals of laughter coming from the typical first years [which were easy to identify because they weren’t wearing uniforms] almost made me feel nostalgic. The fact that I had literally NO ONE to talk to made me a bit melancholy. This coming from someone who wished long and hard the previous semester to be separate from friends so that I’d have more “ME” time. Well, guess what, wishes DO come true. *sigh*
I guess since I sorta wanted this before, I have to live with it now. I gotta learn to survive this semester by myself. No friends. No support system. No one. Just me. Alone…
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